The Clock is Ticking

1. Father went to college yes
2. Father finished college well, sorta..associate's
3. Mother went to college yes
4. Mother finished college yes
5. Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor yes..the Brother
6. Were the same or higher class than your high school teachers. yes, middle class
7. Had more than 50 books in your childhood home. yep..and check out cards
8. Had more than 500 books in your childhood home. no room
9. Were read children's books by a parent yep.
10. Had lessons of any kind before you turned 18 yep--piano, flute, dance
11. The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed on the the news just before the hysterical mother
12. Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18 try 23
13. Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs first degree, yes. second no
14. Went to a private high school nope
15. Went to summer camp yep
16. Had a private tutor before you turned 18 nope
17. Family vacations involved staying at hotels yep
18. Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18 nope, some were hand me downs from the neighbor
19. Your parents bought you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them yep
20. There was original art in your house when you were a child only what my brother and I did
21. You and your family lived in a single-family house yep
22. Your parent(s) owned their own house or apartment before you left home nope, just paid it off
23. You had your own room as a child yep
24. Participated in a SAT/ACT prep course no
25. Had your own TV in your room in high school yep, a black and white
26. Owned a mutual fund or IRA in high school or college thanks to my grandfather
27. Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16 Orlando when I was 2
28. Went on a cruise with your family still waiting for this one, promises, promises
29. Went on more than one cruise with your family see above
30. Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up yep..education is important
31. You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family probably..don't really remember

Had an interesting train of thought the other day....an old friend, K, started it.

I was telling him a little about some medical troubles I've been having. Nothing major. Just stuff to get over. He commented that I'm too bad to die young. Ok..it was worth a short giggle.

But I got to thinking about it...It's not that I'm bad. Well, not really. I guess it's more that I feel like maybe I haven't been very good at living. You'd think after 31 (eek) years I'd have a better handle on it.

I just don't know..I feel like I've not focused on things that are really important. I haven't honestly been thankful for every bit of the life I've been given. Most importantly, I'm not grateful.

More on this. Soon..not months from now. Promise.

Actually, no, it isn't different shit. I've been here before.

Starting over.

Frickin' sucks. But, I guess we all do stuff we don't want to, right?